Ramblings of a hormonal woman

As I work to blog daily (ha!  we'll see how long I keep that up) I find myself struggling on what to write and how to share what is on my mind.

Many of our friends and families know of our struggles to add to our family.  As I go, day by day, through this miracle of a pregnancy, I am finding myself more introspective.  After all we have been through, my fears of losing this precious little girl are slowly easing and I thank those that have so diligently been praying for us.  I am enjoying the little kicks and punches of our very active little girl, and have started shopping for her and decorating the soon-to-be nursery.

However, all of that excitement is a consistent reminder of the dear friends of mine that aren't to this point yet.  Those that are still waiting with empty wombs, empty arms and longing hearts.  And it just doesn't seem fair.  I want to be able to share my joy with those I love, but I hold back in fear of causing them pain. Perhaps I am not giving them enough credit, but I know how my heart hurt before this pregnancy and how even well-intended comments could leave me in tears.  I pray to not be that person...to not be the one that causes that pain.

While my intent for this blog is to keep a journal of our life and our little family, I know that quite a bit of what I write will be "tinged" by my infertility.  Its a big part of me, just as our little babies in Heaven will always be a part of me.  I appreciate those of you that have been and continue to stand by us in this journey, through the good and the bad, the laughter and the tears, the happiness and the joy.  I welcome those that are new to knowing our family and pray that this blog will bless you in some way, whether it be as support to you personally or as finding a new understanding regarding someone else that is struggling.