Today I went to two more consignment sales looking for baby "stuff". As I was in the check out line for the last one, I suddenly felt very odd. Like I was outside looking in. I was amazed to see myself standing there, with baby clothes, toys and bows in hand. And it is for MY child. It was surreal.
There have been so many times over the past year that I never thought this would happen. I find myself rubbing my belly to get her to move as proof that she's really still in there. I try to picture what life will be like when she arrives, and just can't.
I am not a person that believes in "jinxing" things, but somehow...buying these baby items is scary. And exciting. And terrifying. And it all just leaves me quietly in awe, praying for her safe arrival in 14 weeks.
I just want to hold my baby, and KNOW she's here.
Can't wait for her arrival either! :) When that time comes....I hope you send lots of pictures! :)
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