Life keeps going

As my heart still recovers from the loss of Aiden, I am finding that once again life goes on.  People keep moving, as do I.

Today I went out and about with Samantha.  We went to a playgroup and had a nice time (although I need to germify everything now LOL).  My reaching out is going a little better.  I am making new friends, and hope that my child will be able to grow up with some of these children as her playmates.

Now that Samantha is napping, I am feeling introspective again.  But for the first time in quite a while, it's a contented introspective.  I am slowly finding my joy again, in a place that I'd never expect to-- a Mom's club.  I am finding women that I have a lot in common with.  Some of them are IF as well, others are not.  Some of them get it, some of them do in a different way.  It's a peaceful type of feeling, to not feel so alone.  To know that other women struggle the same way I do, even if it is for a different reason.  I feel like I am starting to define me, not letting IF do it for me.

Today is the day the Lord has made.  I am finding that I am rejoicing in it.  :)